The last few months have been tough for me. I have been working on some relationships and circumstances that have been hurtful and extremely hard to deal with. Through a lot of this, I have found myself trying to fix things Courtney's way. The past couple of weeks, the Lord has been pulling heavily on my heart. I know he is nudging me to let go and give my concerns, frustrations, and hurt to him.
It is hard for me to intentionally give up control. I often hold myself together so that I can fix everything...and everyone else. What a silly concept when I have a Saviour who loves me so much that he died for me.
I read the following verse last night..
"You were running a good race. Who cut in and kept you from obeying the truth?" Galatians 5:7
This touched my heart because I will go to extreme lengths for others, sometimes at my own expense. Instead of giving the Lord the opportunity to direct me, I choose how and where to serve. This has gotten me into trouble a few times before. I will involve myself in situations where I care too much, but simply can't help. This verse is a reminder to be careful of those who attempt to move me from putting God first in my life.
If you read this, please pray for me and my walk with the Lord.